Daydreaming

Ever since I was really young, I would often daydream about myself in fantasy scenarios. When I was younger, I would hang out with my "friends" who were movie characters. I remember one scenario was racing around in super fast cars with Buzz Lightyear and Woody. I loved Magic School Bus, and had an irrational craving for it to be real: to hang out with those students, and go on adventures with magic. I had to settle for whatever I could think up in my imagination. Star Wars was a huge influence on my imagination: fighting with lightsabers and using the force. I read youth fiction books about when Obiwan was a young Padawan, and I would imagine myself at the Jedi Temple training with him. After playing a Spiderman PS2 game at a friends house, I took on those spider powers, and visualized swinging through cities, climbing skyscrapers, running on rooftops, and fighting baddies. It became a night time ritual, daydreaming while in bed trying to sleep. After watching a movie, I would often end up placing myself in that scenario the same night. In my 20's, my powers expanded with spider nano-bots all throughout my body. They give me super strength, speed, healing, and knowledge. They can generate shields and produce electrical charges that I can shoot at enemies. Sometimes, they could even open up warp holes to teleport. The scenarios now included anime shows. I would lack the magic or shinobi abilities that everyone else has, but I make up for it with my nano-bot powers. Other scenarios include taking down entire yakuza rings, infiltrating vampire covens, and winning magic school tournaments (which have been inspired by Harry Potter × Avatar the Last Airbender × Fairy Tail × My Hero Academia).

Sometimes this goes in phases, where I would have a really active imagination before bed for weeks, followed by weeks where I'm too tired and don't want to put in that effort. Sometimes I'm especially violent, visualizing how I would win against a group of thugs or bullies, feeling powerful as I eradicate these people who won't leave me alone. Many of the other scenarios involve romantic subplots or even main plots, but that's too embarrassing to write about.