Recurring dream of skipping class

In university, there were a few classes that I failed or dropped where I simply didn’t do the work. I either wasn’t interested in the class or felt overwhelmed by the requirements. So I would just not do it. It was in the back of my mind, but I procrastinated until it was too late.

Since then, I’ll dream about this scenario every so often. Interestingly, it’s always a different class in a different classroom. But the result is always the same. I’ll attend class one day, realize that the semester is almost with exams coming up, and wonder why I skipped all the other classes and haven’t done any of the homework. Then I’ll be determined to catch up with everything in time for the exams, knowing that it would be impossible. Then I might try to negotiate with the teacher. I always wake up relived that I don’t have that class. But there’s usually a project or course in my real life that I’m procrastinating on. It’s like a part of my subconscious is trying to warn me of the consequences if I don’t do it.

I had this kind of dream last night. And I know why. I skipped Chinese class for the past couple weeks. I even skipped an improv class and left a LYT session halfway through this week. My next Chinese class is tomorrow, and I’m behind in homework by a month. I scheduled a 3-hour timeblock today to work on catching up. I only focused for one hour before losing to distraction.